lack of light

That's about how it feels right now.

Some days I really do love being in France. But overall, it's been so hard. I have had to deal with stuff none of the other assistants have, and I'm just tired--I'm not used to fighting for everything I need, and I'm not sure I should just give up, and it leaves me worn out and uneasy. Right now it's just miserable. I'm homesick, I want to be with my family for Christmas, I feel like a failure for not loving France 100%. I know I need to relax--and that is why I am taking yoga, and it does help, but it's hard.

It always gets better.